A New Idea

Yesterday was a rough day. I struggle with anxiety and it really just hit me hard yesterday. I felt lonely and rather than fighting the voice in my head I decided to dwell in it.
However, I did spend some time listening to some powerful christian speakers and focusing on me and how I can fight these ideas that I feed myself. Out of this reflection I thought to myself, I should start a blog to document my life and just be a creative outlet for myself. I thought about it and I was terrified but also excited at the same time.

So you may be thinking, well isn't this an old blog and not a new one. Well I finally sat down now and was like, "I'm going to start this blog thing." And to my surprise I already had a super old blog that I completely forgot about! I'm not sure whether or not I'll delete all the old entries. I'll decide that later.

So here I am breathing new life into this once deserted blog. I want this place to just be a place where I can sit down and just vent, clear my head and collect my thoughts. Nothing fancy, nothing extraordinary, just me and my thoughts on my life.

Enjoy :-)

-Kody

Give Thanks

The most important thing that the Savior says to do is to love the lord your god with all your heart, soul, strength and mind.

On one occasion an expert in the law stood up to test Jesus. "Teacher," he asked, "what must I do to inherit eternal life?"

"What is written in the Law?" he replied. "How do you read it?"

He answered: " 'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind and Love your neighbor as yourself.""You have answered correctly," Jesus replied. "Do this and you will live."

--Luke 10:25-28

The one question I have always had is "How?"

I have constantly asked god, How do I serve you the way you want me to?

How do I stay away from sin

how, how, how

The question in hand is how do I serve the lord my god with all that I have?

For each person its different

God all gave us different gifts and he wants us to use those to glorify him

For the longest time I thought, how in the world can someone glorify god through technology or cooking or some sort of trade that people have that isn't the obvious dancing, singing or preaching.

But its easier than I thought originally. If you give thanks to god for the gifts and talents he has bestoyed upon you and focus on him during, you can worship god doing anything

For me, I worship and glorify god through my colorguard and photography. Every time I nail a move or get the "perfect" shot I know that god is using me to do great things. Before a performance I pray to god and lift up the team and ask that he bestoy his grace upon us and that we can do our best that day. With photography I pray that he will show me what he wants me to see and that I can even slightly capture the amazing beauty he has created and put on this earth.

"For I can do anything with the help of christ who gives me the strength I need"

--Philippians 4:13

So next time you practice your instrument, play sports, go out on a photo shoot...anything that your good at, take a moment and thank god for this amazing skill that he has blessed you with.

"How great you are, O Sovereign LORD! There is no one like you, and there is no God but you"

--2 Samuel 7:22

Photography

One thing that I absolutely love and adore is photography. It is a passion of mine and I like to believe I'm pretty good at it. I don't want to brag because I can't stand other who brag about their accomplishments. The other day I was hanging out with my friend Kim and just whipped out my camera. I happened to catch this picture that I really liked. I think it shows her character, very kind and caring. Hope you all like it!

Confessions

A blog is supposed to be used as an outlet, a way to express yourself. Right now, I feel compelled to just let some things that have been bugging me and things I just need to say off my chest and just release them.

1. It really upsets me and annoys me when you tell him I don't need him or should even hang out with him. He's one of my good friends and I can talk to him about almost anything. It hurts when you are oblivious to that.

2. I still hate how I was humiliated that day. I still have pent up angry towards you that I wish would go away. I'm sorry I'm not as good as you, or as you think you are.

3. I didn't mean to insult you yesterday. I felt terrible after I did it, it wasn't meant to sound the way it did. I'm terribly sorry.

4. It feels like everytime we talk you give me excuses why we can't hang out or tell me about how your busy when I didn't even ask. I feel like thats hendering our friendship from going any farther

5. I wish we could be closer. After all that drama ended there was nothing really to talk about than school. I miss knowing you better.

My prayer today is for a change. A change of scenery, a new cast of characters...

I know God has a huge change is store for me very soon, in a month a ton will change and God has sooo much planned to show me.